By Laura Bradford
It was exactly a week ago today, that evil preyed on Newtown, Connecticut. And not a day has gone by since then that I haven't cried.
I know Newtown. I grew up in the next town over. I've driven those streets, passed that school, turned "right at the flag pole." But more than that, I'm a mom and I'm a human being--two things you can't be and not hurt deep inside for what those children went through, what their parents and siblings must grapple with for the rest of their lives.
Like Maggie said on Wednesday, I guess what I'm struggling with is the why. This wasn't a country with something to prove, or a person with an ax to grind. How could it be when twenty of the victims were first graders?
Just the thought of those precious little innocents brings the tears all over again. And with the tears comes the overwhelming feeling of helplessness. After all, in a hurricane or other natural disaster, you can send food and clothes. But for something like this? What can you really do? What can you do to erase this kind of hurt?
Two days ago, I finally reached out (via email) to a pastor from my old church in St. Charles, MO. I guess I needed the comfort he's so good at giving. I needed to hear something that I could hold onto other than despair.
He did not disappoint.
He, too, knows there is nothing we can truly do to take the pain from these families. But he said something that I've held onto since I read his email. He said, "For now, we wait, we trust, we hope…and we do whatever we CAN do to make a little bit of earth more like a little bit of heaven."
A little bit of earth more like a little bit of heaven.
I like that. Because no matter what your religious beliefs, I'm quite sure we can all agree this world needs to be better.
No one person can change the world, but each and every person can change their corner of it with a little bit of determination and heart. I know I'm sure going to try.
In the meantime, I wish a very Merry Christmas to those who celebrate, and a blessed 2013 to all. We can change things. We can make this world better...one small step at a time.